Hello, again; it's been almost four weeks into being home and being out only when essential. I'm going to share with you what's been new and has anything changed for the most part.
The last time I updated you was on March 17th, 2020; today I'm giving you an update. Truthfully, I've had some good days and bad days. My anxiety was close to a flare up on the 25th of March. I was getting ready to have a panic attack. I had a lot of bulid up a week prior and that worsened it. I had just finished writing a story I've been putting off for a month (to my surprise I liked how it came out too) and that's when the moment happened. But minus my anxiety moment, that story I was putting off I began working on that particular week and it was a nice way to fill the void. I've got one I put off for a few years, and another one to do a tiny bit of research for. Writing is a great hobby to express your inner creative; start small if you want to begin writing more at home.
I learned to curate my own cookie recipe and I've made it twice since being home. One variant of that recipe was better than the other (in case you were curious). I did also talk to my Grammy in the midst of this a few times being home (I miss her terribly and I cannot wait to hug her after this is over!) and she's been a lifesaver. I've been out of a routine since this all started and I am learning daily to adjust to this new routine of mine. I prefer not to be out of one but life is teaching that going with the flow of life is a good thing sometimes. But I was having a lot of thoughts of how reality is going to be after all of this. A few of those thoughts is "How are we going to feel getting back to where we used to be before? Do I need to re adjust my routine?" Truthfully, this staying at home aspect is teaching us to go inward and take care of things we've been putting off for far too long. I've been practicing yoga more and I meditate daily for 10 minutes in the morning (I find when I don't do my yoga I feel very funky- not in a good way either) plus go on occasional walks with my dogs, too. Movement is good for someone like me that is very sedentary sometimes. I also try to get outside more as being cooped up sometimes makes me go stir crazy.
So, the things I've not been missing: the mall (yes as weird as that sounds I don't love it as much as I did), and going to get coffee at coffee shops (I've been loving making coffee at home and my wallet LOVES it too!)
Things I've been missing: Sitting and enjoying my coffee at a coffee shop / writing a story + having a coffee at a coffee shop, going food shopping to Trader Joe's / Whole Foods, going to the movies, going out to eat, doing my personal one-on-one support outings, and Target.
Once this is all over, I think we will have a deeper sense of what reality truly is. We'll appreciate being around those we love a lot more than we should. Outings will be more enjoyable; walks around the park / trail will be more therapeutic for those that love to exercise outside. But for the time being, stay safe, practice self care daily, and know once this is done life will still feel like it should be. It will feel good once again.
Some nice quotes for you awesome peeps out there (in case you need it):
Hopefully, you all are doing things that bring you joy. Filling that void daily is good for the soul. Hope these quotes can serve as a reminder for you. I will update you again soon. And in case you didn't hear it today, you are doing a great job protecting yourself and being safe and letting those people on the frontlines help battle this deadly virus from those that are infected. You go do something that you love. And I'll be here. Still at home like you all should be.
Create.
Write.
Make Art.
Dance.
Breathe.
Love.
Peace.
Happiness.
Life.
Sending you love and awesome hugs your way.
With love,
Lauren
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