Hello, everybody! It has been almost a month from the last time I updated you all. And as I tell myself, "Some days are better than others." I stick to this statement more because everyday isn't going to be picture perfect. Life isn't meant to be perfect at all; it has it's flaws sometimes. I'm going to go ahead with the updates for you all.
At the beginning of May, it was starting off good. But I was letting the negative commentary from my sister (here are some examples: Did you wash your hands after touching the mail? Quit touching your face.) It went on and on for a few weeks. She since went to visit my grandparents and I've been on the struggle bus since she's left.
She left, I had to readjust to a new routine and we are still in the middle of a pandemic. It felt like my brain was going to explode with all of these changes. It even began to overwhelm me, too. I took some "mental" space from my sister to give myself time to work my way up to talk to her again (via the phone / facetime of course). I hated being away from her; she's my only sibling now people. I did eventually start talking to her over the past weekend (via phone) and it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Just to boost my spirits one week, I curated a movie week of all of my favorite movies- it helped in the most part. Sometimes you need to do the things that make you smile. I also has a realization too- I haven't had an ounce of alcohol since October 2017 (when I went to England). I did make this a personal choice for myself to not consume it and I hadn't been open to even saying it in a blog post (like the one you are currently reading). I didn't like the way it felt and it personally wasn't good to have on my anxiety. I don't plan on going back to that part of me anymore.
I still talk to my personal one-on-one support lady over the phone; she's been such a gem calling me every week; speaking of a new phone and I caved and became a millennial- I have an iPhone 11 now (plus old airpods from my mom- Thanks, mom!). It's been an adjustment but I think I've been liking it. Love the camera on it (no shame to taking pictures of my dogs all the time). Speaking of my fur babies, Hyatt has to readjust too; he had an incident one afternoon walking with my dad and my other dog Susie and it led to getting a muzzle. This spiked my anxiety a bit. When Hyatt had on during walks, he tried to take it off with his paw and it led to a scab on his nose and it bled some; That still scared me.
I've been baking + cooking still being at home; discovered single serve cookies and haven't looked back. I use one from Pinterest that's vegan based- peanutbutterpluschocolate.com. Great if you need something sweet! I also did homemade pita chips for my mom (it's good if you want something different other than crackers / tortilla chips).
Right around the time my sister went to my grandparents, my parents went to do a drive-by for my grandmother's birthday / wedding anniversary / mother's day. My sister made her a Treacle tart (traditional England dessert) and we got her cookies from a coffee shop (which we had to pre-order- she loved those cookies!) Still continuing my yoga and I've taken a break from the dance workouts I used to do (trying to be easier on my knees) so I supplement the dance workouts with going for occasional walks. It's all about listening to what your body needs, than rather what it wants.
To close out the blog post here's some quotes:
And to add, the world may seem darker than it has been before. But I want to let you know that this world cannot be revolved on hate, we to let the love in. I hope you enjoyed this post and tune in for next month's post! Stay safe and hydrated, guys!
-Love, Lauren-
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