August 2016 Month in a Nutshell

I have one of my monthly nutshells for you today! Hope you enjoy reading!

August 1st, 2016: Made guacamole today and my Pop Pop made his signature pasta sauce for dinner that night; my Grammy recieved a fun new chair for the outside.

August 2nd, 2016: Got pedicures, went to the grocery store and Walgreens and got things from both of those places; went to the adults-only pool near my grandparents and enjoyed myself; got my new #alwayskeepfighting campaign shirt from my sister today.

August 3rd, 2016: Went out for some fun errands today; took a nice walk with my mom; enjoyed "CMA Fest" on TV tonight.

August 4th, 2016: Took a nice walk (again) today with my mom; went sightseeing and ate dinner in Berlin, MD (cool little place); ended my day with a yoga video.

August 5th, 2016: Errands!; treated myself to an afternoon meditation practice and yoga stretch video; enjoyed the opening ceremonies of the olympic games in Rio.

August 6th, 2016: More errands!; walked my dog around the yard to view the most astonishing sunset God had ever created; also ended this day with a yoga video and meditation and a face mask, too.

August 7th, 2016: Went and enjoyed the drive home with my sister (stopped halfway to get the freshly made cookie dough ice cream); my August 2016 birchbox came in the mail when I got back today; ended this day as always with some meditation.

August 8th, 2016: Went to go get my groceries I needed for this month and even went to Starbucks as well.

August 9th, 2016: Chores all day long- laundry: my clothes, my bedding, pillows, bathroom linens, and bathroom mat- all needed to be washed and dried (did get all of that) plus vacuumed the house too. Filmed a new YT video today; prepped a quick lunch for tomorrow too; yoga and meditation ended this day.

August 10th, 2016: My therapy session went well today; went to go see Suicide Squad and it was fun! Also got me a shirt from that movie too; treated myself to a face mask, pore strip, and foot lotion tonight (since this day was pretty busy); made a quick breakfast for tomorrow too; yoga and meditation ended this day.

August 11th, 2016: Had an important meeting to attend to; bought Mickey D's for lunch; my new iPod armband came in the mail from Amazon today; also decided to be an annoying sister and chase my sister around the house. Oh, how fun!

August 12th, 2016: Quick grocery store run! Me and my sister had a movie night (since the parents went out this evening) and we watched Zoolander 2 and Deadpool (both were funny by the way) and that night we also had made homemade pizzas.

August 13th, 2016: Celebrated my Hyatt's 5th doggy birthday! (made him his own 'cake' too); Also saw Michael Phelps get his gold medal in his last swimming race ever in the Rio olympic games! Yay!

August 14th, 2016: Chores almost all day long! Quick afternoon meditation practice; got rid of magazines.

August 15th, 2016: Began the day with a yoga video; my August 2016 ipsy bag came in the mail and so did my People Style Watch September 2016 issue; got Starbucks and headed to the library and I got a new book- The infinite moment of us; ended my day with meditation.

August 16th, 2016: Began my day with meditation; had an semi-important meeting this afternoon; got a new bookcase and decorated it.

August 17th, 2016: My therapy sesh went a bit well today and even made a unique tea combo to have at my sesh- chamomile tea and peppermint tea sweetened with stevia- needed it since this day I felt very panicky, and shaky. Treated myself to a hot bath with lavender, a face mask, and pore strip, too; prepped a quick lunch since I begin my new program tomorrow; ended my day with yoga and meditation.

August 18th, 2016: Began my new program today (went to the gym, ate lunch at the library, and went and took in the ocean air at the boardwalk). Had a delicious dinner my mom made; ended my day with yoga.

August 19th, 2016: My play by sephora box for August came in the mail today; ended my day with yoga and meditation.

August 20th, 2016: Lot of chores kinda day! (did get them all done too); planned out next month's grocery, general and online list and even got it printed off and finished too; got an episode of "Supernatural" in on Netflix; ended my day with meditation.

August 21st, 2016: Watched my favorite movie for the millionth time- Rocky Horror Picture Show; my momma got me a nice, new lunchbox for my new program; even saw two deer outside (as we had a storm this day); ended this day with meditation.

August 22nd, 2016: Had Panera for lunch today; tried some new Kashi bars my mom got at her work meeting and even made peanut butter banana muffins and guacamole too; filmed a new YT video today; finally finished a book I had been dying to get finished; ended my day with loving kindness meditation on my Calm app.

August 23rd, 2016: Began one of my new library reads today and even managed to sit down later (again) and finish the whole book! Yay! Mom got her hair cut off and we got ice cream at Mickey D's (YUM!); also went into Yankee Candle and smelt some good candles and not so good candles; also got a couple more books when I was at the library too; ended my day with meditation.

August 24th, 2016: Errands!; went to a doctor's appointment; when my dad played the Pandora rock station on his Amazon Echo "Carry on my Wayward son" began playing (#SPN fan here... ;) ); read some of my new library book and ended my day with a loving kindness meditation.

August 25th, 2016: Had my new program outing today (ate lunch outside Panera; went bowling; walked on the boardwalk); also had a dentist appointment too; also typed some more of a story I needed to type up; made a delicious salmon dinner tonight; ended my day with a loving kindness meditation.

August 26th, 2016: Weirdly planned out all of my fall TV premieres for September and October 2016; took time aside and read some of my "Great Gatsby" library book; had a nice evening walk with Hyatt; ended my day with meditation.

August 27th, 2016: Chores; finished up my "Great Gatsby" library book and even watched the 2013 movie version of the book (enjoyed it by the way); ended my day with a loving kindness meditation on my calm app.

August 28th, 2016: Got some small chores done; made some cookies and appetizers as my family was coming home from my Grandparents house on this day; had takeout for dinner; ended this day with a loving kindness meditation on my calm app.

August 29th, 2016: Watched the 2016 VMAs (we recorded it and it was an okay show this year); got Starbucks from my momma and my sister and I cooked dinner and my sister also made an almond pound cake; also my seasonal allergies decided to show up and surprise me today (blech!); even did a loving kindness meditation practice on my calm app.

August 30th, 2016: Made homemade sweet potato fries to accompany dinner; also read a story and relaxed before going to sleep.

August 31st, 2016: My therapy sesh went well today; began my day with a morning meditation practice; did a yoga video and even watched one of my favorite movies on Netflix- Across the Universe and even treated myself to a face mask and some tea.

I hope you enjoyed today's monthly nutshell! Tune in for September's post soon!

Lauren :)

Lauren's Personal Post | August 2016

Hello, guys! I haven't done a personal post in such a while so unfortunately I'm doing one today.

As I'm writing this, I'm surrounded by people I don't know that in the house I'm vacationing at this week. My family is here too but I just can't take this day like I should be able to. Everything has been aggravating me to my breaking point today. Just everything. From having to deal with money problems for a Comic-Con like thing in September with my best friend, my ex, etc.

Then, I just start losing it after everything that has been bothering me. You know the whole deal with that here.

And also, I feel like I've been overshadowed by my sister ever since she has gone to college (and now going back in the fall for her last two years at UMUC). I feel like they gravitate the attention towards her and I get that invisible feeling inside of me that I don't personally like. I just want to be the person that gets all the credit she deserves in life, not having my younger sister taking it all away from me. Then, when she hangs around with the way younger kids on my block where I live she gets all the attention. It gets so frustrating sometimes! Why her?! Why not me?! I hate having to hide myself all the time. Notice that I'm here too, you know?! Like I remember one thing, I was getting ready to head out to the movies with my best friend; one of the kids my sister likes just freaking leaves me by myself and I told her I didn't want to be alone and just freaking leaves me. WTF??? I guess those parents of the kids my sister likes don't understand how nice of a person I can be.

Me and my thoughts conversing here:

It's just them, Lauren; they do like you in some way shape or form.

NO! They don't like me, they like my sister because she done something with her life whereas I'm still figuring out mine. 

They'll like you! 

NO! Just stop talking please I'm tired of hearing these thoughts from you, I'm tired of it. I just want to be well liked by those kids and I guess they don't like me back. Well, I don't like one of those kids but yeah that's another story for another day.  

Why don't you like that particular kid?

She reminds me of a childhood friend that had the same bossy attitude and I can't stand the sight of the girl whenever I see her in my neighborhood.

She that bad?

Yeah, unfortunately.

Well, what about the others?

The others, some of them are okay and cool; the rest of them are okay.

Have you always had a problem with kids?  

Ever since I was diagnosed at the age of 3 with my autism, I've never seen a bond with kids when I'm around them.

Really? 

Yes, really. But I've just not been the person that sees myself with a baby in my arms in the future. 

Why?

I feel like I've not been the mom type. Especially if I'm around my younger cousins.

You don't want kids is what your trying to say?

Yes. That's what I'm saying. I'd rather be happy with a pet than another pint-sized human. 

You love animals more than humans?

I love them both equally but a pet is fine for me instead. 

You'd rather be happy with your future husband, pet, and you?

Yes.

What do you like about yourself as a human of the world?

I like the fact that I can take time for myself whenever I need it. To breathe is to live. To not breathe is to die.

Wow, that's deep.

Sorry, thoughts.

You're good. 

Thanks. 

So do you see yourself married, happy and with someone that loves and cares about you?

I hope to be happy with someone that loves me and truly will care for me. As long as they can handle my crazy side (haha), it's all good. Whomever God chooses for me, I know that man will be caring, kind, and will love anything and everything about me. 

What do you look for in a person?

Humour, Care, Loving, Smart, and Free-Spirit'ed- ness

Anything you dislike?

Cockiness, being on your electronic devices constantly and not paying attention to me, and big egos (know-it-all's), etc. 

Okay, anything else today before I go?

Nope, your good. Enjoy your day.

See ya.

Sorry for that long conversation with my thoughts; I thought (ha, no pun here) I would share them with you. It's just a lot on my mind to talk about and writing it makes it feel like a destressor for me.

I hope you enjoyed what's been on the personal side of me lately. I usually don't like to be too personal with you on this blog but I did it for you today.

Lauren :)

Take time out for what's the most important to you in your life. 

You only have one life. Enjoy it to the fullest.

Be a better version of yourself.