Life now may become easy, but harder later on in life

Hey there! Man, I haven't done these blogs in a while; as you know, I am still on vacation and quite frankly I am enjoying it. I come home on 9/20/2011. Made dinner one night which was a vegetarian shepherd's pie with salad and a roll, and dessert which was my chocolate vegan cupcakes-MMM!!!! Went shopping and purchased a whole bunch of stuff including two shirts from Hot Topic (PATD & Paramore), hand sanitizers and body shimmer from Bath & Body Works, a Jack Skellington stuffed animal & grumpy mug also w/ purchasing the diamond edition of The Lion King which comes out in October plus lithographs of the film I got for free with buying it, and lots of things from Build-a-Bear for my bear Brittany. I have been having a wonderful time since I have been down here, like cleaning and chilling with my grandparents. Watched the VMAs on 8/28/2011, and it was really good. Lady GaGa was her male alter ego Jo Calderone the entire night and did a spectacular performance of "You & I"; also won for "Best Video with a Message" & "Best Female Video" for Born This Way. The other performances were okay due to the fact that most of it was rap/hip-hop to which I didn't care for but an alternative band named Young the Giant performed and did fantastic. Adele performed and was so good; did a Britney Spears look back with young girls dancing to her music from when she started and up to now and a Amy Winehouse tribute to which Bruno Mars performed "Valerie"; The fashions were okay, but some were impeccable!

The list of the VMA winners: Best Pop Video- "Til The World Ends"- Britney Spears, Best Rock Video- "Walk"- Foo Fighters, Best Hip-Hop Video- "Super Bass"- Nicki Minaj, Best Female Video- "Born This Way"- Lady GaGa, Best Male Video- "U Smile"- Justin Bieber, Best Collaboration Video-"ET"- Katy Perry ft. Kanye West, Video of the Year- "Firework" - Katy Perry, Best Video with a Message- "Born This Way"- Lady GaGa, Best New Artist- Tyler, The Creator; the other categories are available at MTV.com/

I know the VMAs were so exciting, but I've been wondering something about myself which is my weight. I've struggled all through my life to be the perfect size but the eating habits came on and so did the pounds; I was the complete opposite of my sister who was more active than I was. But I made a change and it was to become a vegetarian and I did and lost 15-20 lbs. from it. I've gained it back now due to lack of exercise and fast food. Sweets are my main weakness, they just sit there and look to be eaten but that was a definite no. I went back to exercising this week since I've been down here in South Carolina; mostly I do whatever comes to mind. That size is coming for me, it needs time to get there, here and now. I want my old body back, and it just doesn't want to but it will.

If you are going through something similar as my situation, you basically know what to do which is to eat healthy and exercise which will help you. I may not feel good some days to know I live in a world where skinny is not necessarily the rage, but we all come in different shapes and sizes. I may not be perfect, but I feel perfect in my own way everyday of my life. I look at a skinny chick, and think to myself, "Do I want to look like that?" Sometimes we can agree with it, but then we can't. I love myself just the way I am and if someone tries to change me because of my size I will not be going forward into that dilemma. Like Lady GaGa says, "I was born this way" and that statement reads true because a majority of the world can't see themselves for who they are. Even if you don't like pop music, listen to that song; it will make you feel good about yourself.

 It doesn't matter whether you're skinny or pudgy, I will love you just as the same. Make the right choices now, and it will result in some shockingly good surprises. Be yourself, it's good for you.

Let the bad things away from you, the light is shining through

As you already know, I had a best friend to once lean my shoulder onto and likes to brings drama along with it. But now I'm realizing, I'm glad to no longer have to see her for what she was and for what she became. I dealt with it from time to time, and eventually were going to plan our own 19th birthday party together but she was too controlling and kept running her mouth as usual. So, if you're in the same situation as I am, get rid of them, and let your life be free of hate and disrespect; just let the love through you and everything will come back into order as one.

My vacation is going overall well sans the less drama in my life, got new things such as clothes and CDs (The Glee 3-D Concert Movie CD) and I've been happier with my family to lean on for such support in my life. I love my life! :) I come back in September, and this vacation is what I call refreshing and peaceful due to the low negativity in my life.

Let the darkness behind you and let the sunshine in. Love your life and choose how you want it to be. :)

A Fresh, Clean Slate Is Needed For This Time In My Life/Vacation Times In August

So, bloggers out there, I am back with a somewhat okay news: me and my best friend aren't getting along, so we are not talking and I am enjoying it completely. She caused some stress on me whenever I was around her. I really need a new serene scene in my life, and it came as soon as I left for vacation on August 3rd, 2011 to see family.

I left Maryland, and came down to South Carolina to where my family is at. Eight hours later, my parents & I came and saw everyone that I needed to see including my sister of who I haven't seen since July. I was ecstatic to see her. Ever since I arrived in South Carolina, I've had fewer meltdowns and have been more happier than I've ever been in my life. What lies when I come home in September is something new and exciting and that is my life being more calm and relaxing.

Overall, my vacation is nice I just came home from Charleston, SC on Sunday which was a nice time. We stayed in a hotel, toured around old Charleston and I learned a lot of things from it. Currently in Fort Mill, SC where my family & I are. My parents & my sister leave on Wednesday (8/10/2011) and I will be sad as soon as they leave but I know they love me within the deepest part of my soul. I have been mostly hanging out since I am down in South Carolina but whatever happens, happens but happens for a simple reason.

I will also update my blog if I can. Hope your summer has been well, and whomever has school again enjoy if you can.