Hi, everyone! Hope everyone had a happy new year! I did. It feels weird you know that you don't have anyone that loves you anymore like Joey did. I've been dealing with a lot. He wants to make a choice in April between me and my friend Kelly. She's a wonderful human being and a great friend. It's just been hard on me. I beg and plead everyday to him that I still love him. And I do. But he doesn't listen to anything I say. I want him. But he's hated by my whole family and friends. I just wanted a happy life with him. I fear things sometimes too. I want to tell you all that I wrote a note to my (now) ex and I really regret it. And I've been going to therapy to help relieve those issues. She (my therapist) had me work on a project for things I want to include in 2016 and things to take out.
I do want to tell you the goals I like to focus on in 2016:
-Take more time for myself (read my bible more and my devotionals in the morning)
-Eat a lot more better (haven't been eating well lately)
-Exercise more (I just need motivation to exercise that's all)
-Write more of my own stories
-Open up and talk to people more
I want to not focus on in 2016:
-My past relationship with Joey
-Negative thoughts
-Be rid of the junk food completely
This is going to be an interesting year for me. That's for sure. But it has been extremely hard at my volunteer center trying to not think about him. It's hard. I can't even be in the same room as him. I just want everything to be the same as it was again. I hate feeling unhappy. But enough about that. Here's some books I recommend to focus on: "You Can You Will" by Joel Osteen, "Fresh Start" by Joel Osteen, "Devotions for a Healthier You" by Katie Farrell, "Staying Strong" by Demi Lovato, and "Eat Pray Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert.
I know this entry is a bit all over the place. But I've wanted to tell you all what's been going on. I do hope to do more posts for you all soon. I just need advice sometimes from others and reassurance.
Thanks for reading!
Lauren.
